Ever been??

I don't like my job. I could care less about the company I work for. I could care less about where the company is going and what new things that are happening.. When they obviously could care less about me. I'm just interested in making it to 5 p.m without breaking a sweat and not losing my sanity in the process. The company filing for bankruptcy and then coming out of it hasn't done much to fatten my wallet. In fact it has actually thinned my wallet. Since I had to lose 7 days of pay , plus have my pay lowered .60 per hour two years ago. I have gotten however more gray hairs.. The only thing it does do which is the only things I'm grateful for in having the job is that it allows me to make my house payment and provide insurance for me and my Husband. Which I guess that should be all that matters and I should just shut up and be grateful that it does at least do that. That's what most people would tell me.

Working in the desert

I have just realized that I'm not working in a field of opportunity to be a witness to anyone, but in fact am working in a desert. In saying that I'm still there to be a light for God. I'm just not there to be anything other than an employee. I'm not there to be a help to anyone, unless God sees to open a door to help. I'm just not there to go out of my way to be anything other than a coworker. My nature is to be helpful which I guess this is why its so hard to go against everything that's in my nature. Which maybe why I'm being carried through this.