What to do...

Sometimes I'm overwhelmed with the feelings of "what are we going to do??".. I'm not sure of anything other than I feel like I'm being sucked down into the quicksand of my circumstances.. I don't even know when or how I got in this .. I have just realized that I wake up this way, and I dwell on it all day long. If I just can remember to get up thankful to be able to get up everyday.. I might be able to get through this..

He's just like me

My youngest son, is a lot like me.. Which is highly irritating to me.. When he tries to get me to change my mind on something concerning him, his arguments make a lot of sense, so it's hard to find a defense against them other than, "because I said so." He's 18 and still lives at home.. That's the only reason why that line still holds water..

The Kingdom of God

What is that really? In the context of "Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and all these things shall be added unto you." What does that mean exactly?? When you're faced with tithing, feeding your family, or paying your bills.. It seems like tithing doesn't seem as important as the rest.. That's with the assumption that the "seek ye first" reference is concerning that.. If it is then we should tithe first, then do the rest.. I've never seen in the bible where it says, pay your bills first, then tithe.. Even though when it comes to eating or paying bills, bills seem to be first. I can live without, cable tv, internet, phone, unfortunately some in my household can't. So the bills get paid, then we eat, then if there is any left, we tithe. Sad isn't it?

Swift Kick/ Resting and Knowing

Have you ever had someone in your life that you just want to go up to and give a swift kick and say, "What is the matter with you??" Have you ever been that very person? I have.. I have had times in my life where I've rolled things around in my head, sometimes for days. Then somehow I would get the answer, and it was usually a simple answer. I had just let the noise of my thoughts get too loud for the "quiet" answer to get through. Then I would say to myself "What's wrong with you??"
Sometimes it was the Holy Spirit trying to tell me something new, but most of the time it was a case of I knew the answer all the time, because I had been there in some form or fashion before. I just was looking at the problem, instead of looking for the answer.
Here lately it's been that I have been over thinking things, instead of just resting in the peace of God. Doing what I know to do, until He tells me something else to do. Even if I don't particularly like what I'm doing at the time. If He hasn't told me to move, I stay put. That is where I fight most of my battles. Learning how to just do what I know I'm suppose to be doing, and not looking to the right or left, but keep my focus on Him.

Enjoying where I'm at

That is from time to time the most difficult part of this walk that I'm on.. Not really liking where I'm at, and wanting to be somewhere else, spiritually as well as physically. Not realizing the opportunities that God has laid out before me right here where I'm at. The opportunities to help someone else, either by word or deed... Not realizing that someone might be watching me react to the situation "I'd rather not be in, by being where I'd rather not be." How even though, I'd rather not be here, God has me right where He wants me, either to learn to crucify my flesh(my own wants and desires), or to be His hand in any situation that might come.

Got Me Thinking

Someone's blog I read today http://jmcq.blogspot.com/ got me thinking.. If we are spiritual beings living in fleshly bodies, that means we have some sort of control on how much we let the fleshly and the spiritual part control us. Not that I'm saying we walk around in some sort of flower child denial that God knows what's going on in our immediate lives and either will do something about it or not, but that we choose how we react to the things that do happen day to day, hour to hour, minute to minute. Sometimes it comes down to the choices we make minute to minute that determine if we go forward. I know personally that I have to sometimes get control of my thoughts that way, in order to not wallow in self pity, or react emotionally to things that I know are emotional triggers for me. As you know if you've read any of my previous blog entries, usually concern my parents. A lot of people call it "self talk".
My personal belief is that Satan only knows what you speak.. He can't read your mind, only God can. If you agree or disagree that's a personal choice.

God continually surprises me

It is becoming apparent that I'm going to be using the same subjects over again at different points in my journey with this blog.
Have you ever been shown something by God (or the Holy Spirit), that was so simple, but at the same time was left you in awe of everything that is God? That's what is happening with me right now. God is showing me the simpleness of walking with Him and the awesomely simple way that it can be to be one of His children. He is also reteaching me how to hear His voice. Which is kinda cool.