Working in the desert

I have just realized that I'm not working in a field of opportunity to be a witness to anyone, but in fact am working in a desert. In saying that I'm still there to be a light for God. I'm just not there to be anything other than an employee. I'm not there to be a help to anyone, unless God sees to open a door to help. I'm just not there to go out of my way to be anything other than a coworker. My nature is to be helpful which I guess this is why its so hard to go against everything that's in my nature. Which maybe why I'm being carried through this.